its hard sometimes
Ethan and I have had a good day today. We just stuck around here and played and napped and fussed around. We needed a peaceful day because the rest of this week is pretty full and busy.
The last 2 nights have been heavenly as far as E's sleeping is concerned. I feel very thankful. Yes, we're still using CIO and while it seems to be teaching my little one how to soothe himself to sleep I have to say doing it by way of crying your eyes out is pretty hard on him (and especially me). He'll cry for maybe 5 minutes once I put him down (awake) at night, then he's out for sometimes 12 hours (can you believe it??) and wakes up happy and peaceful at a normal time in the morning. Its those 5 or 10 minutes at 8:00 pm at night that we both dread. Ethan knows its coming, when I lay him in his crib. And I hate it. Hate it.
Before CIO, I'd soothe him to sleep at bedtime (and through the night as needed) and put him into this crib asleep. Thus, he was not learning to fall asleep on his own - the whole point of CIO. Lately, he's so squirmy (but obviously tired) at bed time he wont lay or sit still for rocking, singing, or even nursing to sleep. So after a feed I'll put him in his darkened room and crib, put the covers over him as he starts to cry, pat his head and body and say "night night" "night night lovie" and leave the room while he wails like I'm never coming back. Then he finally settles. I just hope that one day that violent thrust into sleep will be a little gentler and something easier on us both.
Despite having humane sleeps myself at night (so amazing) I'm tired tonight. Troy's been working late a lot lately so I'm parenting solo for a while which is pretty exhausting when you don't have a break. With Ethan's earlier bedtime, Troy sometimes doesnt make it home in time to see him which is sad and frustrating. But not his fault.
Anyway - a busy week ahead, starting with a meeting with my employer tomorrow morning, and then with a possible daycare on Thursday. Both meetings I don't dread, per se, but I suppose I'm dwelling on what they signify: 3 months and I'm back at work full time.
Depressing enough to make me cry myself to sleep.
The last 2 nights have been heavenly as far as E's sleeping is concerned. I feel very thankful. Yes, we're still using CIO and while it seems to be teaching my little one how to soothe himself to sleep I have to say doing it by way of crying your eyes out is pretty hard on him (and especially me). He'll cry for maybe 5 minutes once I put him down (awake) at night, then he's out for sometimes 12 hours (can you believe it??) and wakes up happy and peaceful at a normal time in the morning. Its those 5 or 10 minutes at 8:00 pm at night that we both dread. Ethan knows its coming, when I lay him in his crib. And I hate it. Hate it.
Before CIO, I'd soothe him to sleep at bedtime (and through the night as needed) and put him into this crib asleep. Thus, he was not learning to fall asleep on his own - the whole point of CIO. Lately, he's so squirmy (but obviously tired) at bed time he wont lay or sit still for rocking, singing, or even nursing to sleep. So after a feed I'll put him in his darkened room and crib, put the covers over him as he starts to cry, pat his head and body and say "night night" "night night lovie" and leave the room while he wails like I'm never coming back. Then he finally settles. I just hope that one day that violent thrust into sleep will be a little gentler and something easier on us both.
Despite having humane sleeps myself at night (so amazing) I'm tired tonight. Troy's been working late a lot lately so I'm parenting solo for a while which is pretty exhausting when you don't have a break. With Ethan's earlier bedtime, Troy sometimes doesnt make it home in time to see him which is sad and frustrating. But not his fault.
Anyway - a busy week ahead, starting with a meeting with my employer tomorrow morning, and then with a possible daycare on Thursday. Both meetings I don't dread, per se, but I suppose I'm dwelling on what they signify: 3 months and I'm back at work full time.
Depressing enough to make me cry myself to sleep.
posted by Sherocious at 9:12 p.m.
2 Comments:
I'm glad you are having some success in the sleep department. We still nurse/rock Teagan to sleep, but I do want to change that. It's hard in our tiny apartment though, she's right in the middle of everything so it's hard to physically leave her. I have moved to letting her cry if she wakes up in the night and she often fusses back to sleep.
*sigh* I remember this stage, when I enjoyed sleep because I so rarely got it. Congrats!
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